Not Just Poems & Photographs [Demos]

by Jessica Allyn

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A treasure chest of Demo songs.

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released December 12, 2014

Music, Lyrics, Vox, Prod: Jessica Allyn

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Jessica Allyn New York, New York

Native to New York, Jessica is, described as "A voice straight out of the 1920's." 4 solo albums, played packed rooms (including CMJ Festival & Somerville Theater), shared the stage with artists such as Amanda Palmer, The Dresden Dolls, Army of Toys, Emilyn Brodsky, Family of the Year, Jaggery. She continues to release music & do live streams to connect with fans, & let them in on the process. ... more

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Track Name: If You Only Knew
This is an exclusive DEMO clip of an upcoming track.

Lyrics (in full):
If you only knew
How I often I sit outside
In the ice cold
Dark of the night
waiting for you to arrive

If you only knew
How to swallow your pride
Rush to my door
I would let you inside

If you only knew
A single romantic gesture
Could cure all this
That's the point
That seems to be missed

Chorus:
And maybe I am out of line
To say that I miss you
But I don't give a damn
And I'm not afraid to say
It has always been you

If you only knew
How these night drives
Seem so long
Yet I circle and circle
The same old spots
And play the same old songs

If you only knew
How your voice, your face, your love
Has colonized inside my head
It's become impossible
For me to ever go to bed

Chorus:
And maybe I am out of line
To say that I miss you
But I don't give a damn
And I'm not afraid to say
It has always been you
Track Name: Leave The Light On
Lyrics:
Keeping the light on
A candle in my window
Too hopeful
Or hopelessly romantic?

Waiting for a call
From a ghost who never shows
So I'll settle for being sleepless
God I wish that you could see this!

Watching the clock
Heart pounds like a fist
And I'm just another sucker
You can add
To the list

We used to own the night
Always chased out by the sun
We couldn't believe our eyes
And now
I can't believe it's done

I'll sing this from the top of my lungs
I'll draw from somewhere deep
I'll always leave the light on
In hopes that you might see (come rescue me)
Track Name: Trust Falls
Lyrics:
Here it is
The waves of truth
Come crashing in
And who am I to blame
anyone for anything
anymore

I see the writing on the wall
I feel it everywhere
I know of the inevitable
I no longer fear

If this is how it's gonna be
Who am I to stand in the way?

Trust falls, no longer need it
I was a catch, you dropped anyway
Track Name: Stumble
Go on, be on your way
Give up on the best
Yeah, the best you'll ever have

You said it yourself
Nothing can compare
Were any of your words true?
Remember, I put my trust in you?

Had it all,
and just dropped the ball
It's heartbreaking to watch you
fall
Further and further into your
own personal Hell

And I can tell,
I know you, oh so well

This is as low as it gets

So, go on, be on your way
Give up on the best
Yeah, the best you'll ever have

And when you turn that new leaf
And when you turn that new leaf....

LOOK NO MORE!
Track Name: Don't You Dare Forget
Every hour,
day by day
I miss the way things
used to be
Like how your kiss makes
my head spin
Made it so easy, to let you in

I still recall, several winter's ago
How your car got caught up in
the snow
We laughed it off, we didn't care
We laughed it off, we didn't care

OH, I KNOW
I have to let you go
But it weighs heavy on this heart
You're so close, yet so far away
And the distance is getting further,
and further away from me

I made mistakes
I'm sorry that we lost our minds
This love - profound
Yes, I have found it
in your eyes
Maybe one day you'll see, too
Maybe one day you'll find your way back, too

So rise up
Carry the weight for a bit
Wise up
And turn things around

I will always love you
That's as honest as it can get
I will always love you
And, don't you dare forget.
Track Name: The Floor
I just swallowed a fist full
of whatever I could get my hands into
And now trace the grains of wood
on the floor
In a moment or two - I won't be here anymore

You could never be yourself around me
But the only person judging was you
You can think what you will
'Cause I know I can't change a thing

But this anger you wear like
some sort armor
is weighing you way down
And I tried to under-stand
and make it worth staying

Now I know - I never stood a chance
No I never stood a chance, with you
2x

Just so we're clear,
I loved you from the start
And even with my last breath
I leave you my heart

This burden I've caused you
will soon be a memory
And eventually my face will turn
fucking blurry

I just swallowed a fist full
of whatever I could get my hands into
And now trace the grains of wood
on the floor
In a moment or two - I won't be here anymore
No!

Just so we're clear,
I love you from the start
And even with my last breath
I leave you with my heart.
Track Name: Alice in Heartbreak Land
went down the rabbit hole
hand in hand
but it was all part
of a larger plan

yeah, you bedded me
just to get rid of me
in the warm light of day
you sent me on my way

and now, i'm worse
than i've ever been
so fucked up in the head
i'm spinning
how could you do that to me?
how true is the love you were claiming?
too many disappearing acts
to believe it

nothing consensual about it
you're on your own
i never wanted a war
i'm dying here, on the floor
and i'm

sorry for giving you all
of me
just to have you throw it in my face
you never knew how to play fair
and this is a perfect case

so i'm on my way...
out.